What was once eternal hell is now a blip in time
forced thoughts made space for a clearer mind.
What was once a gathering place defined by age
I look back as though it were all acted out on a stage.
What was once all that I knew
a bound routine has now gone askew…
I had no idea what I was going out into.
I wrote this poem after being given school as a promt in the writers group I am a part of. We had to write 6 lines but I couldn’t decide between the last two so for the sake of this post (and my sanity π) I’ve left both in. Truth be told, those of you that have known me long enough are probably aware that I was homeschooled for the last portion of time in school because of my chronic pain.
I worked through a lot of the subjects by myself before I was given a tutor and even then there were days when she (there were a few before her but she was the one who stuck!) couldn’t come because I was unwell so I had to teach myself. I feel like there are elements of this in the poem above as well as how I thought about school when I was in it as well.
My shyness controlled me almost as much as my chronic illness and for the most part it wasn’t a nice time. When I became homeschooled I worked hard and passed all of my exams constantly worrying whether or not I was studying the right things in-between flare-ups as there was a disconnect between myself and the school despite my tutor being arranged with them.
I felt cut off from being a normal teenager and it was at times a downward spiral of not being able to do anything because of the pain so I could have become more shy because of it but it instead made me stronger πͺ. I still can’t believe that that time in my life is over as in the moment it felt like it would go on forever. I also can’t believe that I achieved what I set out to do. Despite this poem being a tad moody it’s really a positive subject that motivates me now (If I can get through all of that I can conquer whatever comes my way both despite my chronic pain and to spite it! π«).
Thank you for reading! I just wanted to share something a bit personal for me with you π I hope you have a lovely day! β₯οΈ
Beautiful poem!!
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Thank you! πβ¨
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It’s beautiful β€οΈ
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Thank you! β¨π
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