Hi everyone! How are you? Today I thought I would share my blogging worry with you! I try to keep my blog as positive as I can as it is a place to take my mind off my pain, but when a worry relates to the place I try to escape into (my blog), it is difficult to try to find the positives in it at all 😂 I have come to the conclusion that the only positive of a worry is that it can be relatable. A relatable worry makes us feel less alone and more human 😂 and so I thought this post could be a place for everyone to share their blogging worries! Big or small it doesn’t matter as it is getting to you all the same. Here is my blogging worry:
I worry that the people I haven’t told about my blog will be annoyed with me for not telling them when they do find out (at the moment 4 people know about it). They will think that I don’t care about them or trust them enough when in reality I do but I have insecurities about my blog. These insecurities don’t seem to care that the people I haven’t told yet are nice people. These insecurities only become visible when I envision my blog being viewed by others and they result in laughter. I need to stop trying to see things through other people’s eyes. I look at my blog and I’m proud of it until I think of what others might think and then the faults show themselves. I can’t get it out of my head that people will react this way when I know they will be happy for me if only I could rack up the courage to tell them.
Even writing this I am thinking “one day so and so will see this post about my blogging worry and think I’m daft”. I’ve been cooped up with my chronic pain for so long that this one thing (blogging) is helping me find a way to be me again and less shy, yet I worry that this me is not what the people I want to tell are used to. The me that is trying to speak up more about her health or is trying to make people laugh or smile and not just sitting quietly in the corner. The me that I have always been but lost a little for a while.
I also fear that when people find out about my blog and I know they are reading it (maybe they won’t and I’m going overboard, they might not even bloody care 😂) I won’t feel as comfortable writing on here like this as I am not this open and talkative in reality.
I don’t think I would be able to say “oh I have a blog” and leave it at that. I would say “oh I have a blog, it’s just talking about stuff…nothing much” I will automatically belittle it as it feels silly to try and describe how truly happy and passionate I am about blogging and it feels like that’s what some people would want to hear: that it’s just a hobby (when it feels much more). If I say I’m passionate about it they might say “if she’s so passionate about it then why didn’t she tell me before??”. I know I need to stop caring about the workings of other peoples brains 😂 but it’s easier said than done sometimes, right?
…that’s my blogging worry 🙈 people finding out. It looks like my mind just exploded all over this post in word form 😬😂 but only because I feel like I’ve gotten it all out. Of course there are little worries that tug at my attention now and then but I feel like this one will be harder to overcome.
Thank you for reading! Do you have a blogging worry too? What is it? Let it out in the comments and let’s see if we can help each other! Hope you have a lovely day!